Say my name, say my name

My parents did not listen to the Beatles.  They were just a little too old, having had kids right at the time the Fab Four blew up in the States.  My older siblings did not listen to the Beatles.  They were just a little too young, and came to listening to their own music after the Beatles broke up.  (As far as the Beatles knew, 7 or 8 years was a good long time to be a band.  The Stones were just kids then.)  In my house, it was either Eddy Arnold and the Kingston Trio, or KISS and REO Speedwagon.

The music to which I was subjected as a child is a small example of a number of perceived injustices I experienced growing up.  To be sure, there were a few real injustices, but my estimation of these has even diminished since I saw “Slumdog Millionaire.”  For a while there, however, my resentment at having spent 17 years in the house of my parents for a crime I did not commit was a defining part of my life.  This shroud encased me in an emotional cowl which, while familiar, was isolating.

If I was going to be in this world, the shroud of resentment had to go, along with my sense of guilt for the things I had done (even though I acted in self-defense at all times.)  I had to get ready to ask for forgiveness for the things I had done by forgiving the people I thought had wronged me.  Removing the cowl is no fun, as any 8 day old Jewish boy can tell you.  But after a snip here and a snip there, the boy gets a name and becomes a person in the world.  This life demands sacrifices, yet living makes it worth the price.