I called God "stinky."
How do any of us let go of old patterns that once served a purpose but now only bring grief? It might be that the process of letting go killed Jesus, or perhaps he had to die in order to let it happen. The relationship that Jesus ended, of course, was a relationship with death itself.
Blaming God has a history much longer than diss tracks, of course, although not quite as long as men blaming women. And we don’t seem to get tired of it.
This is not an invasion of Peter’s privacy, it is a sharing of intimacy. It’s a statement that says we are welcomed to be in relationship with this one who exceeds all of our understanding. Like Peter, I imagine that I would be likely to respond, “Who, me? But you know that I’m no good, right?
Then again, you may not want to hear it from Judas anymore. It’s too heartbreaking, as is the truth that, late at night, at the end of the road, Judas probably wishes he hadn’t destroyed the one thing that gave him hope.